Hi

Yeah I'm still here.

Overlooked

I've put 7 good years in at work. I feel that I deserve to have my education plan approved. If my plan is denied for the second time it is abundantly clear to me that I am not part of the long term plan there. The part that sucks is now I have g/f that I feel could be my long term partner. I'm beginning to feel that we have a life together, but she can't leave town anytime soon due to work commitments.

I'm at the point of life where I need to start thinking about the future, and my work and personal lives are going 2 seperate directions. I'm beginning to realize that life choices will always be this way, and that the path is never clear. I've made choices all along that have been selfish, and have limited my directions.

I know the feeling I felt today all too well. The feeling that someone else is getting what I deserve. SGA President, the Crown job, my education plan...a pattern that I do not like.

I have to change this path.

Steelers

Man I hate the Steelers, but I enjoy the time anyway. Thoughts of "could this be the one" a starting to surface. Is 7 months with someone to early to tell? I'm afraid of all my relationships in the past. They all ended and at least 2 , at some point in the relationship, I thought was the "one".

PMA

Try to remember your 2 rules of conflict:

1) Do something about a problem.
2) If you can't do rule #1, shut up.

This is my anti-bitching formula.

But if you never try you’ll never know

When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And i…
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And i…

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Hmmm

Maybe I'm not a happy writer. It's much easier for me to put words down when I'm not feeling happy. I guess the lack of writing is a good sign then.

DMB Setlist

jun.04.2005

Post Gazette Pavilion, Burgettstown, PA

#41
Granny
American Baby
Rhyme & Reason (Everyday Intro)
Out of My Hands
Everyday
Dreamgirl
You Might Die Trying
Lie In Our Graves
Louisiana Bayou
Crash
Stand Up
Where Are You Going?
Hunger For The Great Light
Watchtower

Encore:
Steady As We Go
Warehouse